One Little Heartbeat at a Time

I took a breather today and just sat on the couch and
watched Aiden toddle around the living room. There were
so many things racing though my mind as I watched him.
I must admit that I wondered to myself if I was up to the
challenge of raising him. If I could work full time and
still be to him the Mother he so deserves to have. I
thought about his future, his numerous medical tests and
procedures. I wondered how we would pay all the deductibles
and co-pays. I wondered and worried about everything from
present day all the way to college and beyond. And of course,
I thought about his past. I thought about his life in the
orphanage and shuttered to think about what his life must have
been like there. In that moment when I felt so overwhelmed
by emotion I had to shake myself back to reality and say
"Mel, focus on TODAY", this moment, this chapter of his life.
Yesterday is gone, only God knows about tomorrow, but I have
THIS moment right now! It was then that I realized my role.
Though I did not give Aiden his life, I can CHANGE his little
life starting now... one little heartbeat at a time.